24 October 2008
i know i am already very blessed to be given this chance to try again and not waste one year and go through emo shit but the retest is held on christmas eve=shitty christmas how fuck dumb is that.
okay fine no matter how fuck dumb it is i will still try-must not give up-for me, for you, for ajchoir
for the past couple of weeks i have been crying without rhyme nor reason. today i caught myself tearing while waiting for the bus home because it just didnt feel right. the other day after a lengthy and loud comm meeting i cried because i didnt understand why.. and sometimes, too much pressure exerted from too many directions would make an iron will crumble-which is probably what happened a couple of hours ago. i think i need a walk and something really fizzy. and i havent been seeing much of eliza and her light-up-the-whole-room-smile lately :( is that why? i miss the kids at mindchamps, each and every single annoying spoit brat ):
Note to self: need to check on dean's progress with pecks.
on a lighter note, PW's been tolerable. i think we're finally getting the hang of it? hang in there, 好姐妹!
FYI: to type that last three chinese characters i had to google the hanyupinyin -.-
"because if he means the world to you he'll be the reason why you will dig the ends of the earth to find the courage to hang on"
i dont know why but
i think my heart is breaking i need you quite desperately
i know i am already very blessed to be given this chance to try again and not waste one year and go through emo shit but the retest is held on christmas eve=shitty christmas how fuck dumb is that.
okay fine no matter how fuck dumb it is i will still try-must not give up-for me, for you, for ajchoir
for the past couple of weeks i have been crying without rhyme nor reason. today i caught myself tearing while waiting for the bus home because it just didnt feel right. the other day after a lengthy and loud comm meeting i cried because i didnt understand why.. and sometimes, too much pressure exerted from too many directions would make an iron will crumble-which is probably what happened a couple of hours ago. i think i need a walk and something really fizzy. and i havent been seeing much of eliza and her light-up-the-whole-room-smile lately :( is that why? i miss the kids at mindchamps, each and every single annoying spoit brat ):
Note to self: need to check on dean's progress with pecks.
on a lighter note, PW's been tolerable. i think we're finally getting the hang of it? hang in there, 好姐妹!
FYI: to type that last three chinese characters i had to google the hanyupinyin -.-
"because if he means the world to you he'll be the reason why you will dig the ends of the earth to find the courage to hang on"
i dont know why but
i think my heart is breaking i need you quite desperately
7:51 PM