11 December 2006
halfway through the christmas gigs alr , its been ohkay lah ( if not good ) so far mmhmmm . glitches and coughups and perhaps a little puke ( verbal diarrhoea ? ) here and there but i guess we'll all learn and grow up stagewise at the end of it all . ooh , i sound philosophical .
oh yeah : welcome to the group willy ( willie ? ) ! well for this christmas anyway . i'll be rather surprised if you see this . actually , i think i'll be flummoxed . and see , we all learn new words everyday .
and , i dont know if i should laugh or cry when dealing with you
im sorry i cant be what you want me to be
im sorry i dont know what you want me to be
im sorry i dont know who you want me to be
im sorry that im your disappointment
im sorry that i just didnt turn out the way you wanted me to
im sorry that you think you cant depend on me when you grow old
im sorry im that gaping hole in your cap amongst the other feathers
i just wanted to try to satisfy my own wishes and everybody elses at the same time
but this just isnt working out
im tired just trying to hang on and make things work
for havent we tried so many times already
you say you gave up on me , when i havent havent
and since you'll never read this , thanks a whole lot , mother .
and so , on a night like this
i find that im all alone
whered you go i missed you so seems like its been forever since youve been gone