19 November 2006
you walked into my life with a smile on your face so wide , but hurting so bad deep inside , i want to , and will be there for you , so please , dont walk out of my life
2:32 AM
12 November 2006
stupid , moronic as hell people who says that storms are nice and that they like storms obviously havent been stuck in one , and are probably happy , safe and cosy at home , maybe even tucked up in bed with a mug of hot chocolate , im serious .
morning started off normal , no big deal . was early ( applause please ! ) to meet tabs , so sat down to wait . and waited . and waited . trained to sengkang and waited alot more . so practice started at 9.00 yes , well guess what , we met each other at 850 . arrived late ( duh ) and i just got crankier and crankier . singing helped a little , i guess . left practice early , picked up the dry cleaning , bused to amk station to go to bishan . why i did not just take the damnit straight bus there and save myself the pain and terror at the bus stop , i do not know . started storming like hell , couldnt even see peoperly , started flipping out cause it started to thunder and I . Hate . Thunder . managed to make it to the station in one piece ( i did a good deed :DDDDD ) , trained to bishan and met sheryl yep . havent had anything since the afternoon before so we went to grab a bite , heh . KFC pissed me off really badly , ridiculous counter service
me : oh uh , actually we want mountain dew and root beer , so-
young annoying and disgusting looking guy : ( black face and then plonks the drinks down on the tray )
me : oh , and can i have alot of chilli sauce please
young annoying and disgusting looking guy : ( grabs a handful ) is this enough !
me : more than enough , actually , thank you ( sarcastically )
like WTH what happened to basic service courtesy ! guess what , dont piss me off when i am alr cranky and pissed off , i'll get you for this , i swear , i didnt have time to today cause i was in a rush , but just you watch out , you fucking idiot .
yes so anyway , flagged a cab ( with much difficulty ) and made it to SVDP fashionably late , we all stepped into this huge puddle the moment we got out of the cab . made several toilet trips and hahahaha , you wont make it anywhere near my blog so hahahahahhaah
charles : uh , hi , do i know you from somewhere ? cause you look really familiar
me : uh , yeah , you just showed me where the toilet was
charles : no , as in , i mean , are you from ij tp or smth
me : HUH NO
charles : oh , really , cause you look really familiar
me : yeah , the toilet , just now
charles : uh , haha , yeah , but nevermind , see you
yes , i do know you lah , from three or so years back . im surprised you still remember me , seriously .
so mass was ohkay lah , amusing at places . met unexpected people , goodness , i swear the world is damnit small , everyone is connected in one way or another . took pictures , gave flowers , made small talk , ate a little , and then it was off home yep . and promptly got out again ( okay , after my shower , i insisted ) for dinner with the family + prince + princess , so i was toy + bag carrier and baby entertainer thrown into the bargain for the night . carried a teletubby around and keep accidentally pressing its stomach and scaring myself ( it goes , EH OH really super loudly , i had LALA ) rather dumb actually . went to some " seafood paradise " where they cut mantous into half at Defu Lane , HAH seafood paradise my foot , stupid place ran out of sotong and kangkong AND DIDNT HAVE SHELLFISH , what stupid rubbish . didnt eat much and had an embarrassing moment with a dead crab , went home , showered again , and now im feeling cranky and emo and pretty much anti everything at the moment .
i think this is my longest post .
so , congratulations then , catrina .
12:06 AM
06 November 2006
if youre not the one then why does my soul feel glad today
if youre not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way
if you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
if you are not mine would i have the strength to stand at all
i never know what the future bringsbut i know you are here with me now
we'll make it throughand i hope you are the one i share my life withi dont wna run away but i cant take it i dont understand
if im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am
if there anyway i can stay in your arms
if i dont need you then why am i crying on my bed
if i dont need you then why does your name resound in my head
if youre not for me then why does this distance maim my life
if youre not for me then why do i dream of you as my wife
i dont know why youre so far away
but i know that this much is true
we'll make it through
and i hope you are you are the one i share my life withand i wish you could be the one i die with
and im praying youre the one i build my home with
i hope i love you all my lifei dont wna run away but i cant take it i dont understand
if im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am
if there anyway i can stay in your arms
cause i miss you body and soul so strong that it takes my breath awayand i breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
cause i love you whether its wrong or rightand though i cant be with you tonightyou know that my heart is always by your sidei dont wna run away but i cant take it i dont understand
if im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am
if there anyway i can stay in your arms
& this is for you now , i love you
6:05 PM
second post in two days , shows that i have absolutely nothing to do :/
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOU :Dhappy birthday sweetie , hope today was good for you , love you muchly and keep the boards ! they were hell to make ( as disgustingly simple as they look ) so you should put it on your wall and look at them everyday ! yay :D
so , white on black or black on white ? or perhaps , a daring combination of black and white ?
so , what more do you want from me now ?
words spoken to mum so far : 36 ( with luck i dont think i'll go over fifty )
days to phantom of the opera : 138
days to christmas : 49
days to official start to carolling : 27
hooray for good things in the world , i like <3
5:33 PM
05 November 2006
im quite tired of this skin , so haha perhaps i'll change it . did abit of math today , so arent you proud now !
so yst was busy , tas prac in the morning and then down to meridien hotel and then to shans church for candy weekend [ but i didnt get any candeeeee , i am :( ] and then down to lous house / church for her confirmation and then back for BBQ ( while the family was having what , KFC family feast at home without me , how nice )
oh yeah .
CONGRATULATIONS LOUISA JEANNE TAN <3 lous confirmation , super funny , i swear . mass was boooooring ( because of the readings and all ) and fun ( because of 5/8 of the recess clique + yings ) , the church choir was o-o-okay lah , hahaha i like :D played scissors paper stone with becks , did the actions of the family dance with yings and becks , i swear we were so childish . gossiped giggled and laughed our way through the entire hour and a half or so long thing , while the prim and proper auntie at the front ( who wore her entire dowry , i swear ) kept looking back and shooting us not so discreet disgusted looks . FYI , she sings off key , and loudly , which is super -- . oh , yes , pretty lou in her ruffly dress , very sexy ! ohoh , and theres the super mysterious T . celesther and regina + their friends sat in the pew behind us . and yes so i realised , we've all changed . sorry celesther , if i made you upset and worried and wanting to hit me but you cant yst yep . ( provided you see this , which i dont think you will , anyway it'll be pretty weird if you do see this ) talk soon , honeyyyy .
walked back to her house from church , super hilarious . made a hell lot of noise on the quiet streets laughing and talking and walking into pillars and poles and our heels keeeeeeeleeeeeeeng meeeeeeee soooooooooooooftleeeeeeeeeee , this old guy turned on the lights at his house and looked out of the window at us :/ hahahaha sorry uncle , we really are , but we cant help being young and happy :DDD
BBQ at her lous , fun :D we were all like pampered princesses know , all six of us sprawled on her couch ( and afterwards floor ) , watching confessions of a teenage drama queen while lou and her dad and everyone else got us food and etcetc , hahaha , it was more of an eat all you can than a barbecue , but it was still fun yay :D oh and , and , oh yes , declaration : i am a good chicken cutter ! yay for bite zied chicken pieces . the cake process was good ( so which cake process isnt ! ) and the cake itself was good , but the coffee liquer was just , odd . not much of it though , thank heavens . papa came to pick me up , and then its home for the day (:
starlight , starbrightfirst star i see tonighti wish i may , i wish i mighthave the wish i wish tonight
2:23 PM
03 November 2006
i spent rather long looking at the blogs updated at so and so pm section when i was signing in , and it was hilarious , seriously , all those out there should give it a shot , its damnit funny , whatever that pops up there . was supposed to watch the sunrise before school today ( which was - , but so whats new ) but haha , it didnt work out :/ oh , and guess what , im determined to be able to make it into school on time for the whole of next week , i refuse to accept the fact that i cant .
went for parachute concert at shans church , really fantastic stuff :D ohoh , and we did word puzzles in the train , and yes , its Oh So Cool And Hip , shans convinced we'll start a new trend of Jumbo Find A Word Puzzle Books , yay ? and omg , Julia Grace ( ? ) is My Ultimate Idol , you should hear her sing , she sounds like spring and summer and waterfalls and gurgling streams and rainbows and everything thats happy and good in the world , three cheers for her ! im a happy girl , nothing can make me depressed or whatever :DDDDD
okay i changed my mind . so some things will never change , but why do i keep wishing it will still ? silly , really .
and i do believe its the wrong time of the year to be eating pineapple tarts , but theyre just so good , i cant ever give them up . hooray for christmas , im counting down alr
will you be there when the tears start falling will you be there when i just give up tryingwill you have the strength to keep me goingi hope you will , i truly do
9:50 PM