14 October 2006
hotmail is pissing me off , i cant sign in for the 349785629487501 time , piang . ( its my new favourite word , dont worry , its just a phase im going through ) actually , so is the tagboard , which is doubly annoying .
sentosa with the recess clique on wednesday , it was fantastic . ate ( not much , admittedly ) , played , tanned , photowhored , it was good and relaxing , really . dinner at harbourfront ( miniwok is good stuff ) , then went to town with becks to get her top ( by the way , it was out of stock , like , -.-" )
games day on thursday , played soccer with dra & the others , cheered the lungs out , ran around supporting everything , got burnt even more ( my nose was this alarming shade of - ) , but everything was worth it in the end , faith was overall champions (: we've proved our worth . gymed with nat later , and felt pretty darned accomplished ( it was the first time ive been to the gym in a damn bloody long time ) shower was rather weird without the shampoo and the towel , then walked to j8 to take the bus home .
reflection day , friday . everything came pouring out , the guilt , the hurt , the anger , the despair , everything . cried ( okay , wept ) pretty much the entire time . sorry friends , for the ugly picture i must have presented , with the tears and snot all over my face ( sort of ) . ive never hugged any of my family my entire life , at least , not even in my earliest memories , and i truly , desperately want to . but i dont think i will , actually . realised that love was always by my side , i just never bothered to look properly to see . but is it too late now ?