28 October 2006
lonely, thats not how we're meant to be
but looking in your eyes I see
a heart that was abandoned
by a world that used to show you love
you feel like youre the only one
whose day begins without the sun
youre left to turn and face it all alone
well, I know sometimes it seems as if
fate has done you wrong
but if you look inside your heart youll find the strength to carry on youve got to leave it all behind you
break through those lonely chains that bind you
cause loves not far away, its gonna find your heart someday and when you feel its warmth surround you
youll realize that love has found you
so turn away your fears
cause the love that you've been looking for is here
suddenly, your broken heart begins to see
a love that lasts eternally
just look ahead and never ever let a single tear drop from your eye
it breaks my heart to see you cry
the pain that haunts you every night
because of all the emptiness inside
well, I know sometimes it seems as if your heart is caving in but if we look inside the soul we'll find the love we have within i know sometimes when things go wrong
your search for strength carry on
but all we need to take control
is the love within my soul
cause you know that love will find a way to reach your heart again someday you must believe its true
now all you have to do
12:58 PM
24 October 2006
HAPPY FIFTEENTH GREEN EGGS :Dokay that was yst , and today is hari raya , hooray ? the lovely sister came visiting in the morning and brought my favourite princess along ( dressed in burberry , no less , goodness , how unfair ) and made my day :D so anyway i'll be off in abit to go visiting :/
yes yings , heres your special shoutout all for you !
yings haha chenyingqi , you amuse me no end , really . thankyou for studying before papers , etcetc , i will work hard , i promise ! haha heres to more walks home from the phillips ave bus stop :D ily muchly , really truly
took this off jingles blog :
sometimes the hardest thing to let go of
is something you never really had
and what could have happened , didnt
like the way a cookie crumbles
so this is my goodbye to you
but i'll never forget how you made me smile
rather true .
2:00 PM
16 October 2006
guestbooks up , hotmails a darling , everyone shout hurrah !
shoutouts , in no particular order :
becks : baby :D youve been really truly wonderful , seriously . thank you for standing by me , understanding when no one else does . yes i promise that i wont give up , and you shouldnt too . i love you . we have many months and years ahead , and i'll cherish them all . im sorry if ive ever hurt you , please know that it isnt intentional . and dear , youre not obese , if you are then im a pink cow and the moon would turn purple (:
shan : hoho , 2006 has been mad fun with you by my side , joy & sorrow , laughter & tears . next year would be great , and we'll work hard together to make up for this year . i really really do love you ( even though you shatter my heart into pieces sometimes ) and yes , i'll always stay by your side and i wont ever leave ( unless you want me to ) . shopping , disney , stayovers , amos , and jobs soon , babe
nat : green eggs , seat partner (: you bite really rather hard but hoho , im used to it alr . you really must work hard next year ( you have the potential to become something great ) i'll make you ! thanks for everything , im sorry if im a nasty whiny spoilt shit at times :/ yes i do eat proper meals ( well my version of proper anyway) and stop having this weird fixation that youre fat ( you really arent ) gym and shopping soon , & ong pei fong , you know i love you right !
dra : i dont know if youre gonna read this , but hoho . you mean a lot to me , really truly . theres still so much time ahead , days and months and years , and i hope that we’ll become closer <3 reflection day is good , ill honour the words that i said (:
anges : haha so actually i don’t really talk to you much either , but all that will change in time ! ill even sing silly songs with you , and watch silly stuff with you , and do many other things :D <3 you !
lou : lou :D hoho you’ve been a part of my life for really rather long , and weve become closer , which is truly a good thing . i cherish your presence in my life , thank you for everything . i may not have been the best that one can ever have , know that you can always count on me , ill always be here for you . love you , hot stuff
skimpy : babe , thanks for all of that that you’ve given me , you gave me the strength to carry on , when im tired and just wna give up . because of you , i didnt , and we’ll work hard , together , because at the end of the road , glory would be waiting . if you ever get tired , and discouraged , im only a few bus stops , phone call , sms , whatever , away .
hoho : bus partner (: thank you for the encouraging sms-es youd send me before and after every paper , they made me feel so much better . youre really lovely to me , do you know that ! i love you :D
xunmin : haha ey , thank you for the very last minute amath tuition before the paper , you never fail to make sense out of the math gibberish , and calm me down when im flustered and panicky :/ i still feel rather bad cause i didn’t really make it for amath , but i swear i’ll work hard and do you proud ! whatever happened to row outing & pencilcases ! but hoho , theres always time , and yes , we’ll celebrate our birthdays together (:
the recess clique you guys made recess so much crazy , mad fun , and i thank God for each and every single one of you . you all mean something special to me , i never wna , and never will , give any of you up . i love all of you so , very much
the choir clique clique :D its been a long time , youre all lovely , and made choir so wonderful . choir’s starting soon , i cant wait . i love all of you , thank you for everything . i miss all of you much , but i’ll see you all soon , that makes me feel so much better . love ! <33
you know who you are : youre really lovely , please dont let whatever that others say get to you , they dont know what youre worth . youre better than what they say you are , and you know that . ill protect you , yes , when no one else will , please take my word for it . stand tall , and be proud , you havent done anything wrong . love <3333
to the many others who made a difference in my life , thank you . without you , i wouldnt be who i am today . id willingly give up all i have , lay down my life , for all of you , thank you for loving me . youre all , truly magical . id smile if it makes you happy , because you mean the world to me , say you wont every leave , cause i never will .
so many things i wanted to say to you , but somehow , couldnt get it out . so now ill watch over you from afar , that’ll be enough no one ever saw me like you do
all the things that i could add up to
i never knew just what a smile was worth
but your eyes say everything without a single word
cause theres something in the way you look at me
its as if my heart knows youre the missing piece
you made me believe that theres nothing in this world i cant be
i never know what you see
but theres something in the way you look at me
if i could freeze a moment in my mind
be the second that you touch your lips to mine
id like to stop the clock make time stand still
cause baby this is just the way i always want to feel
cause theres something in the way you look at me
its as if my heart knows youre the missing piece
you made me believe that theres nothing in this world i cant be
i never know what you see
but theres something in the way you look at me
i dont know how or why i feel different in your eyes
all i know is that it happens everytime
cause theres something in the way you look at me
its as if my heart knows youre the missing piece
you made me believe that theres nothing in the world i cant be
i never know what you see
but theres something in the way you look at me
The Way You Look At Me ( Christian Bautisa )
7:48 PM
14 October 2006
hotmail is pissing me off , i cant sign in for the 349785629487501 time , piang . ( its my new favourite word , dont worry , its just a phase im going through ) actually , so is the tagboard , which is doubly annoying .
sentosa with the recess clique on wednesday , it was fantastic . ate ( not much , admittedly ) , played , tanned , photowhored , it was good and relaxing , really . dinner at harbourfront ( miniwok is good stuff ) , then went to town with becks to get her top ( by the way , it was out of stock , like , -.-" )
games day on thursday , played soccer with dra & the others , cheered the lungs out , ran around supporting everything , got burnt even more ( my nose was this alarming shade of - ) , but everything was worth it in the end , faith was overall champions (: we've proved our worth . gymed with nat later , and felt pretty darned accomplished ( it was the first time ive been to the gym in a damn bloody long time ) shower was rather weird without the shampoo and the towel , then walked to j8 to take the bus home .
reflection day , friday . everything came pouring out , the guilt , the hurt , the anger , the despair , everything . cried ( okay , wept ) pretty much the entire time . sorry friends , for the ugly picture i must have presented , with the tears and snot all over my face ( sort of ) . ive never hugged any of my family my entire life , at least , not even in my earliest memories , and i truly , desperately want to . but i dont think i will , actually . realised that love was always by my side , i just never bothered to look properly to see . but is it too late now ?
9:46 PM
06 October 2006
for all those times you stood by me
for all the truth that you made me see
for all the joy you brought to my life
for all the wrong that you made right
for every dream you made come true
for all the love i found in you
i'll be forever thankful baby
youre the one who held me up
never let me fall
youre the one who saw me through , through it all
you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldnt speak
you were my eyes when i couldnt see
you saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when i couldnt reach
you gave me faith cause you believed
im everything i am
because you loved me
you gave me wings and made me fly
you touched my hand i could touch the sky
i lost my faith you gave it back to me
you said no star was out of reach
you stood by me and i stood tall
i had your love i had it all
im grateful for each day you gave me
maybe i dont know that much
but i know this much is true
i was blessed because i was loved by you
you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldnt speak
you were my eyes when i couldnt see
you saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when i couldnt reach
you gave me faith cause you believed
im everything i am
because you loved me
you were always there for me
a tender wind that carried me
a light in the dark shining your light into my life
youve been my inspiration
through the lies you were the truth
my world is a better place because of you
you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldnt speak
you were my eyes when i couldnt see
you saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when i couldnt reach
you gave me faith cause you believed
im everything i am
because you loved me
thank you
10:04 PM