24 June 2006
you must give up something of equal value to have another thing , and this , this is the way of the world . there are so many things i have , and so many things that i refuse to give up , that i think God may take it all back one day , and i pray that day will never come .
4:39 PM
19 June 2006
today was the 1st day of job attachment , and i never want to see wrapping paper again .
i just spent the entire day sorting and filing and moving stacks and stacks and stacks of papers in Alphabetical and Numerical order , and wrapping an amazing number ( 68 ) of heavy square boxes . many people quipped ( wha , christmas coming ah ? ) at me after they realised that i was Still Wrapping the goddamned boxes ( excuse the language please ) after four hours . i do believe they started to pity dra and me abit after seeing the amazing number of ridiculously tedious tasks dra and me had to complete . when i go back on wednesday ( tmrws jubilate practice for the entire day ) i have like two boxes and innumerable bulging files to sort out and probably more stupid tasks like type out a million and one letters or something . stupid stuff aside , the people there are really nice . so i didnt mind doing all those things . well , not that much . i guess . yep , and the glam clothes are a plus . yeep peee deee dooo dahhhh
8:15 PM
16 June 2006
160606 , 1001 am , the niece was born ! i dont know how to spell her name , but apparently it goes like ( my-zeh-rah ) soft 'z's please !
the mum is damn annoying , todays a happy day and she just ruined it for me by yelling at me for God Knows What . seriously . sometimes i wonder why i have to put up with so much shit . okay this was supposed to be a joyous and happy post , and look , more unhappy words than happy words ! okay lets even it out abit (:
TODAY IS A WONDERFUL , FANTABULOUS , EXCITING , SIMPLY ECSTATIC , GORGEOUS DAY , YAY !
and i shall study hard and earn moneyyy and then when they grow up i can take the niece and the nephew out on shopping trips and teach him to be a Perfect Gentleman and her to be a Knockout (:
i solemnly promise to be the best doting aunt ever , really .
oh yes i will , just you wait and see
10:37 AM
15 June 2006
yes hello .
i'm trying desperately to put off the moment when i have to sit back down at the disaster area i like to call my work table and work on my math . i've admired the night view from the kitchen window ( its amazing how confusing counting stars can get ). i ate cheese on crackers and drunk quite a few glasses of coke light . i sat down in front of the tv and watched channel newsasia . i offered to water the solitary , pathetic , dying plant outside my house ( i didnt though ) . i even made a list of Things I Should Have Done By Now But I Didnt , which includes doing math . oh and english lit . now i'm surfing the net , playing neopets . no , more like wasting my hard earned neopoints from long long ago on stuff like Scorchio Bubbles . and now i realise , hell , fairie quests are Incredibly Stupid And Annoying .
oh yeah , my sisters water bag burst , symbolizing the start of motherhood for her . and also mayhem around the house , now with a new addition to the family and an extra diaper to change . yay ? mum's all fidgety and nervous and cant iron the clothes properly , making more creases instead of getting them out , so i made her stop . and i'm assigned the Very Important Role Of Answering The Phone for today and tomorrow . meaning i dont get to be with my sister when she gives birth . meaning my first glance of my niece would not be , for a long time . thanks mum , i really appreciated that .
tomorrows choir admin and music interview , i hope i dont screw up , i never was good at playing the piano in front of people :/
160606 , its gonna be a great day .
10:49 PM
10 June 2006
todays post shall be a very overdue , reflective post .
i know i havent been performing up to standard .
i know its my fault that i got the damn ugly results i did , and can blame no one .
i know that i could have done so much better .
i know i could have chosen not to play my last half a year away , but i did .
i do feel bad , i really do . for no one knows better than i do what i am capable of , and its just a question of whether i wanted to or not , and no one feels worse than i do .
its time i bucked up .
its time i start feeling bad for every test i fail , not because i'm incompetent , but because i didnt bother to study .
its time i start putting in my whole heart in everything i do
i'm considering losing weight ( again ) , but yknw , theres only so much self improvement one can do (: dont worry , i'll get doen to THAT in time .
ah yes
CZECHERS , I;M VERY PROUD OF YOU FOR CLIINCHING DOUBLE GOLD IN C-C-CZECH , HOORAY FOR CHOIR ! I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MMUCH , AND YOU'LL BE BACK , SOON (:
12:49 AM